~自己~

今天知道成绩，我不及格了。。

其实我本已带着接受不及格的心情，

但长这么大的我第一次面对考试不及格，

心情真的很不好受。。。

好辛苦忍着泪，但，最终还是躲在厕所哭了。。

是因为考试不及格？还是因为放在心上的事情太沉重了？

我也不晓得，我迷失了，我从没像现在那么地没方向感。。

我要的是什么？我该做些什么？

想了好久，但答案总是不了了之。。

是我变了吗？还是我已看懂了？

看懂了我的生活？

看懂了我们之间的关系？

看懂了我是不是该为我自己做些什么？

看懂了我应该做些改变？

是我变了才看懂了，还是我看懂了才变了？？

我想，是哪个都不重要，我真地需要冷静。。

我好想为我自己活一次。。

Present of I by Calculation

• I(During Work) = Tires of work + Stress + Money

Tires = Rushing for work whole day

Stress = A lot of studies + research

Money = Earn abit from work

• I ( During Conflict ) = Headache + Sadness+ Cry

Headache = To solve the problem

Sad = When the conflict happen

Cry = Because of sadness

• I (During Dreaming of travel) = Happy + Excited - Tires of work - Stress

Happy = Happy to think about it

Excited = Excited of planning to do it

• I ( During Traveling ) = Happy + Excited - Money

Happy = To look out different world

Excited = To know or meet new things or ppl

• I ( During Learning Piano ) = Enjoy + Relax - Headache - Cry

Enjoy = The feeling of play piano

Relax = From the music

• I ( During at Home) = Comfortable + Safe + Warm + Sweet

Comfortable = My little own world

Safe = Protect by my lovely parents

Warm = Care from my family members

Sweet = Love from my family members

• I ( Present ) = I (During Work) + I ( During Conflict) + I ( Dreaming of travel) +I ( During Traveling) + I ( During Learning Piano) + I ( During at Home )

So,

• I ( Present ) = Tires of work + Stress + Money + Headache + Sadness + Cry + Happy + Excited - Tires of work - Stress + Happy + Excited - Money + Enjoy + Relax - Headache - Cry + Comfortable + Safe + Warm + Sweet

Conclusion,

• I ( Present ) = Sadness + Happy + Excited + Happy + Excited + Enjoy + Relax + Comfortable + Safe + Warm + Sweet

• I ( Present ) = Happy + Excited2 + Enjoy + Relax + Comfortable + Safe + Warm + Sweet

Can get it?

It mean that my life right now still fill by feeling of happy, double strength of excited, enjoy, relax ,comfortable, safe , warm and sweet ..

^_^

Wish to travel right now..

Waiting for it..

PenangTrip08nov08

~Hiking Photo~

Finally get the photo during hiking from friend..

Felt really sorry to disturb her alot ^__^

Kit, an active and sweet girl..

she like to take photo..

me.. look so happy..

a nice photo took by Kit..

Darien and i were the model that day..

haha.. *__*

No choice, one photograher and another two have to be model..

Go to explode and see the end it lead to..

nice and cool water..

we went to catch the fish also..

Nice shot by photograher..

of course it also need professional model like me and Darien..

Haha.. ^__^

We really tired of keep jumping..

Another nice photo..

Still have some other photo..

But tired to upload already..

*__*

Finish our job already..Yeah,123, smile..

and went to swim afterward..

because the sea really look so nice that day..

~A Crazy Day~8/11/08

I had went out for hiking in Penang National Park with newly meet friends. National Park is a relaxing place with beautiful scenery along the way. We took around 1 hour ++ to reach the beach.We took some crazy photos, swim , chat, observe fishes there.. unfortunately i didnt took camera,so have to wait for my friend's photo. The weather that day was great, blue sky and sea. . Enjoy the moment so much.

We walked back with our wet clothes and its dark when we reach at the carpark. We took bath in public toilet (not so clean toilet although it was considered as new toilet). Then we went to gather with other cs members. Alot of ppls and foreigners at the cs gathering. We were having dinners together. So happy to meet and chat with them there. There was a girl's birthday at that day. We celebrate it with her and there was a suggestion go to club afterward.

My first time clubbing with a T-shirt and short pan. Haha. ^__^ Happy hour until 3am next morning. Reach home at 4am and have to wake up and work somemore on 6.30am. I straight feel ill the next day. How lousy were I. haha.. *__*

It was really an amazing,crazy and wonderful day..just like a dream. So happy to meet them all and hope to see them again.

~一部可爱的韩剧~

~带我走~